It all started like half a year or so ago, when my friend decided it would be so f--kin hilarious to prank call Mr.Thomas and say all that racist sh*t. If only i would of ratted on him and told the truth to officer Adams that day he had called me into the office and questioned me about it. But no, being a good friend i stood up for him and said he didn't do anything. Thats what any good friend would do...right? Well it turns out he fessed up, since they had his dumb ass on recording saying the obsurd racial slurs to the teacher. So backed against a corner, he just said yeah I did it. Being a sh*ttier friend he also told them that I had told im what to say to the teacher..when i didnt of course, because he thought it would get him in less trouble, which it didnt! F--kin idiot screwed both his and my life up, just cause he had to open his mouth and lie. Of course when Adams asked me I was shocked and told him straight up i didnt do it. Wrote out a report of what ACTUALLY happened..still didnt matter. I went to court about twelve times over a god damn phone call, and had to get alllll the way to thurston county everytime just to get charged for bull sh*t i didnt do. Now if i would of pleaded not guilty, that would of been crappy cause i most likely would have been found guilty, so i had to play "their" game and plead guilty to a "crime" i didnt even do! That made me more mad than anything really. So i went for deferment. My deferment was granted and i was good to go, oh and did i mention i got 100 hours community service for that bullsh*t!(and a felon!) i know people who have done muchhhh worse stuff and gotten off with like 20 hours, but this was considered a race crime so thye made it a bigg deal. Another thing that really bugs me about it is that Mr thomas had a meeting with my friend about the whole situation, but refused to have a meeting with me. Because i intimate him? WHAT THE F--K IS THAT ABOUT?! i had him in calss and he was a great teacher, i was nice to him and everything. But just because i had a shaved head at the time since it was during wrestling season he got off on the fact that i was some type of racist skinhead or some bullsh*t. which i am most deffinatly not! After all the thurston county court sh*t was over i was like okay im gonna get through this (year of probation) and stuff was going good. That is until i got a little drunk and decided it would be a good idea to shoplift two six packs from wal mart.. even though i had done it plenty of times, gotten away with mass ammounts of beer, it only took that one time to f--k me over, me and the SAME person got caught, man handled by three gaurds as we stepped outside, now i know i could of easily booked it the f--k outta there, but my friends too weak and he would of gotten caught and snitched on me for sure. Honestly if my friend got away and they asked me who it was id just say it was some dude from centralia i just met a few hours ago, its not like they're gonna find some punk runnin aroun in centralia right? Oh the sh*ttiest thing about this situation was that as the gaurds were handling me through the entire front of wal mart my wrestling coach was at a register and saw me. he came into the security office and made me take off my wrestling t..god was that embaressing, so they called big ol officer ohlson down, i failed a breathalizer andddd they found a container in my bad that SMELT like marijuana, but there was nothing in it thank god.. but ya, im not allowed in wal mart for life which sucks, and i still havent been to court for that yet, i could get up to 30 days in juvi and some fines and stuff..i just think its gonna suck once thurston county gets word of this...shiittt. that lady judge is such a crude Biiiiiitch. Today (oct 7th) was a big f--k up too.. I (being stupid) along with a student skipped 4th period and got a little high, no big deal right? we come back during lunch and stacey stops us before the front doors....god my heart was beating like the double bass in a death metal song. she knew i was high, i just could tell she knew. she asked us to go into the office..we sat down and i was thinkin in my head...i am soooo f--ked man, this is it....she said ok im gonna have you empty out all your pockets etc etc..so we did, and it was all goood......n she asked me why my eyes were so red and i said it was because lack of sleep. thought they was a legit excuse? and she said alright well you guys can go now. i was js like "hell yea man were safe!! but as i was walking out of her office she said sometihn like josh come back in here i forgot to check your bag... my heart just sunk and i nearly sh*t myself, so i took off my bag and emptied it out, and she found the pill bottle with a bag of weed in it. I knew right then and there that i was done, i was so mad and sad at the same time, she took it of course which sucked bad cause i only got one bowl out of it, i might as well of just reefed it all you know? So now im really f--ked..i have to do that true north thing which doesnt sound fun at all, but if i wanna continue my education then i gotta do it.anddd drug and alcohol classes. its like...i had weed dude, it wasnt some crack or meth. it was weed! natural out of the dirt herb, stuff that our forefathers grew, along with many other cultures of people. I reeaaally dont see why its such a big deal, its such a harmless "substance". But im not gonna get into that now. Maybe I should seriously just get sober for a few months..get my life out of this hole i keep digging, and be free again, because being on probation and not being "free" really sucks man. Another big concern i have is that im gonna miss out on some school, and im really tryin to get graduated..but stuff like this wont help:/

oh well.. I made a mistake and im gonna pay for it, deal with it, and hopefully soon in the near future life will be back on track for me.

I think this is the smartest thing you've said. And it will get back on track. Just face whatever you have to face and try not to make it worse!