I've always thought through writting i'd find my needed place,
and things i have suffered so deep would find their breathing space.
Even for a momment i'd reveal the dispose.
And all the doors left ajar would slowly begin to close.
A voice misunderstood speaks clearly through the ink,
cleaning out the wreakage to have more room to think.
Hoping that i could heal, and my spirits to be lifted,
renewing my inner core as each thought is being shifted.
But this road has gotten longer, and im running out of gas.
Every exit that looks ubstructed i've paved with broken glass.
Now my words lay inside, waiting their great escape
while i give in to this void my pen will take a break.
(c) 2008
Kelly,
I love these lines:
A voice misunderstood speaks clearly through the ink,
cleaning out the wreakage to have more room to think.
and
But this road has gotten longer, and im running out of gas.
Every exit that looks ubstructed i've paved with broken glass.
These really make a statement. I think I can relate to how you feel too. When a writer isn't writing, they call it writer's block. Well, they can call it anything they want, but what I know is that when I haven't written anything in a while it's because when I was writing all the time it was like I wanted to be understood; I wanted to leave a record of who I was and what I thought and cared about, etc. And then I didn't so much, or didn't care enough to bother to try anymore. It's tedious work, trying to be understood, right? I'm not sure about the off ramps paved with broken glass, unless the easy ways out are fraught with too much peril to risk it? Like a meth diet... sure you'll drop those pounds! Anyway, the writer is by definition a misunderstood misanthrope, so you might as well get used to it and keep writing. There's lots to write about and a lot of good to be done too. I have recently returned to writing myself, and that's another thing: Writers are cursed because they generally feel misunderstood or not quite a part of things a lot of the time, and they know writing is what they need to do whether they do it or not. Even when they aren't writing, they're thinking they should be. Might as well keep doing it.
